I’ve been missing in action lately. There’s been quite a few changes since my last post. One of them is a new shift that my body is still adapting to. But despite it all, I’m happy! Like, I’m genuinely happy and It’s not because of someone or anything in particular. I’m just in a really good place emotionally and I can only thank God for that.
Anyways! Not too recently, I was thinking about this particular time in my life, more like after giving birth to my son and the changes that occurred within myself. For a long time, I’ve struggled with having to find a balance between being a young mom, being true to myself, my happiness, and people’s perceptions of me. I won’t go in too much details as of yet about my experience of being a young mom for this will be a topic I’ll gladly discuss in the future. But for now, all i want to say is I’m finally trying to be myself and I’m loving it. It feels good! It’s so easy to lose your identity when you’re trying to fill in shoes that aren’t meant for you. I lost myself trying to be something that I wasn’t, in hopes to… I don’t know man lol. I know part of it was because of the shame I constantly felt, and the struggles that came with it, the people I’ve let down and wanting to do right in their eyes. So in the process I’ve dimmed my light to live off of what others considered right. Living your life in pretense is like living a life full of limitations. And as I’ve previously mentioned, i truly don’t want to live this way. So here I am.. fully embracing myself regardless of what life throws my way. It’s not easy, but I’m making it.
Shoes: Public desire